Sometimes I don’t have any.
I can’t believe what I can’t see.
I don’t always believe that everything is going to work out how it is
supposed to because the times are too difficult.
But these boys. I
don’t understand it. They always
believe. They never doubt that God is
good and who He says He is. They never
doubt that He will deliver for us every single time.
And it doesn’t make sense.
Their lives have been full of disappointment. They spent too many a night alone and
hungry. They have been abused and
neglected in ways that even my worst imaginations don’t compare. They have been hurt over and over. They have every reason to doubt. I am sure that they prayed too many a prayer
begging God, only to wake up for another miserable day of the same.
But somehow, when I think it won’t work out for us, they
assure me it will. When we had one day
remaining to get rent. A boy and I were
fasting and praying together for it. He
loves God so much. Looking at him, here, no one believes it. They think that he
is a Rasta, takes too many drugs, and is a thug. None of those things are true, but people are
so judgmental and can't open their eyes to his heart. He wants to be a pastor. He wants to go to Bible college in the US so
he can learn so much and come back and plant a church and help run this ministry
with me. He wants to give his whole life
to God. He is 15. And he has his life planned. But it is a good plan, one that I think God
wants for him too.
Anyway, as I was not believing that we would get the house
because it was too perfect and our life has been anything but perfect lately,
he looked at me and said, “Don’t worry.
God already gave us the house.”
And sure enough, it was true.
In the morning when we woke up, we saw the money that we
needed for rent. Our dream house is on
its way to being ours. We will have
plenty of space to play and have a garden.
Plenty of space for the dogs to run and to build houses for the animals
we want to keep. I didn’t think it was
possible.
But thankfully, these boys’ faith carried us and God shows
up even when we only have faith the size of a mustard seed.
Photos of our new house to come. We are still waiting on the broker to confirm
everything and when we will met with the owner to pay the rent, but should hear back today. Thank you everyone that made it possible! However, we still need help getting beds and mattresses and cases for the boys to keep their things, check out our gofundme campaign and help with what you
can. A new mattress is about $30 and
with new bedding $50, complete with the bed $90. Anything and
everything will help. Please tell your
friends to help also. You guys are the
best!