Sometimes I don’t have any. I can’t believe what I can’t see. I don’t always believe that everything is going to work out how it is supposed to because the times are too difficult.
But these boys. I don’t understand it. They always believe. They never doubt that God is good and who He says He is. They never doubt that He will deliver for us every single time.
And it doesn’t make sense. Their lives have been full of disappointment. They spent too many a night alone and hungry. They have been abused and neglected in ways that even my worst imaginations don’t compare. They have been hurt over and over. They have every reason to doubt. I am sure that they prayed too many a prayer begging God, only to wake up for another miserable day of the same.
But somehow, when I think it won’t work out for us, they assure me it will. When we had one day remaining to get rent. A boy and I were fasting and praying together for it. He loves God so much. Looking at him, here, no one believes it. They think that he is a Rasta, takes too many drugs, and is a thug. None of those things are true, but people are so judgmental and can't open their eyes to his heart. He wants to be a pastor. He wants to go to Bible college in the US so he can learn so much and come back and plant a church and help run this ministry with me. He wants to give his whole life to God. He is 15. And he has his life planned. But it is a good plan, one that I think God wants for him too.
Anyway, as I was not believing that we would get the house because it was too perfect and our life has been anything but perfect lately, he looked at me and said, “Don’t worry. God already gave us the house.”
And sure enough, it was true.
In the morning when we woke up, we saw the money that we needed for rent. Our dream house is on its way to being ours. We will have plenty of space to play and have a garden. Plenty of space for the dogs to run and to build houses for the animals we want to keep. I didn’t think it was possible.
But thankfully, these boys’ faith carried us and God shows up even when we only have faith the size of a mustard seed.
Photos of our new house to come. We are still waiting on the broker to confirm everything and when we will met with the owner to pay the rent, but should hear back today. Thank you everyone that made it possible! However, we still need help getting beds and mattresses and cases for the boys to keep their things, check out our gofundme campaign and help with what you can. A new mattress is about $30 and with new bedding $50, complete with the bed $90. Anything and everything will help. Please tell your friends to help also. You guys are the best!